Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Time to get the ball rolling...
Its finally time to start preparing for my own wedding :) Turning the calendar to March I realised there isnt much time left. I want to get things settled asap so i can get some peace of mind and be relaxed. So whats left to be done?
-VG & PG
-Mandap + Deco +Florist
-Disc Jockey+Bhangra Dancers
-Garlands+Loose flowers
-Car Deco
-Potrait Photography
-Mangalsutra
-Laser Treatment
-Imitation Jewellery+Bangles
-Mehendi+Make up & HairDo
-Shoes+Groom's Attire
-Brides Shoes
Actually i already have a rough idea of the entire ceremony.
For Portrait photography this sat I gotta go to Popular studio (Jurong)to talk to them about it
VG & PG I am still very lost...
MAndap+Deco+Florist am collecting quotations
DJ+Bhangra am still enquiring
Garland and loose flowers mum will enquire
Car Deco approx $350
Mangalsutra i will buy on the 4th may(my 2nd wedding anni)
Imitation Jewellery+Bangles either mustafa/De'vogue botique @Stylemart area
Mehndi+Make up + Hair do looking for recommendations
Shoes + Groom attire alvin has to start soon
Shoes for bride i am thinking of Khussas...think can get in mama road...
LAser treatment i will start in Apr/May...(BCNG or Summit clinic??)
NOw it sall about money money and more money.... Still need to save up before we leave sgp...
so gotta try to save as much as possible!
:)but happy to start the preps...
All said and done...
And so the 25th of February is finally over. For some it would have been an exciting wait and for others a day they wished didnt ever come. But nature took its course and what had to happen has happened. Sh'e took the leap and decided that her decicion is final. Yes I am stuck in the middle and probably will always be but hmmm... somethings never change i guess.
As much as i wanted to, something held me back from attending the ceremony. But no regrets. My better half represented me and well at least i had the solace that i saw everything thru his eyes. I should even be thankful to my relatives BigB and family and Sheetal's family, sanju for representing his family... for being there for her in a way.
SO things are slowly falling back in place and i pray day in day out that my parents get strength and courage to face each day as it comes and she never regrets the decision that she has taken.
So god please do keep blessing us so that we will be able to face the days of our lives...
Friday, February 23, 2007
Gone
She has made her decision and left us all.
I didnt think i'll feel this way after she's gone.
I look on the side of the bed where she slept
I stared all night with tears in my eyes
So many years, she has been there
suddenly the spot is left bare
I wish her happiness and joy
and hope its all worth the sacrifice
I dunno if things will ever be the same
Just want her to know i'll be there til the end...
...Torn...
Sometimes I'm torn between two worlds
And I can't make up my mind
I sit and wait hopefully in between
Just waiting for a sign
But I guess you know. And I know too
That people sometimes change
I want to be in both worlds
Even though it's not within my range
I am still waiting...
will i go insane?
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
6th Feb
The year just seemed to have started and its hard to believe when i have to flip the claender one month ahead. Time seems to fly by. in 5 months at this time i will be preparing to get married.
Just 5 months left. Will be giving the wedding cards for printing after chinese New year..
Then probably this weekend i'll be going fown to mama road to check out the other necessities ;)
Hope everything turns out well. I have put on more weight now... I just cant keep myself off food. And each time i mention i am hungry alvin doesnt hesitate to order food or make sandwiches for me. Now how how can i ever grow thin again. I wish to get back into the pants i used to wear in poly. That was the time i was so proud of having the body that i had :) i still fit into those pants without much difficulty but of cuz there is always somethin we're displeased with ;) Alot of room for improvement
Friday, February 02, 2007
StReSsEd?
Dunno if i am stressed or not but i feel really restless, I get sudden shifts in mood which Alvin should be well aware of as he has to tolerate it all -sorry :( i feel so frustrated and resentful I wanna get rid of these feelings and i try as much as possible to keep my cool but it aint that easy. Just keep having a desire to cry. I dun feel like doing anything that i normally do. Not exercising, sometimes i even forget if i had my meals... dun like waking up in the mornings...
I hope these feelings pass soon.I dun like livin with them :(
Symptoms of stress? NO i cant possibly be stressed can i?WEll yeah maybe i can... maybe I AM
